The Desperate Kingdom of Love

"Study first before you enter the kingdom of Love" -Melay. PBB

“One thing I’ve learned, that in the face of true love, you don’t just give up. Even if the object of your affection is begging you to.” - Chuck Bass. GG


Those were just some of the words I've read this week which truly hit a nerve.


Funny how some people experience the same kinds of things at the same time. Hence, the title of this post. As of this writing, I have talked to one, two... five people who are kind of  having the same situation right now.

I, however, am trying to get away from that place. Not because I want to, but I have to. Too many people have already told me to move on. And I've told myself that too plenty of times. It's just that I haven't had the will to do it yet. But a friend said, "Take chances. But know when to stop." And I remember another friend telling a friend, "Iba ang binibigyan ng chance sa pinipilit na lang." Sometimes I think that that's exactly what I've been doing. I force myself to believe that there are certain things to do with me, which somehow has to do with him as well. For one thing, how his ex-girlfriend looks so much like one of my sisters. I kept thinking that Fate was bringing us together. Especially how after three years of no communication, we find each other again. Well, I found him. But still, for me it was Fate. Yes, cheesy much. But that's really what I think. Or well, I should say thought. But honestly, no matter how much people would tell me that it's not true, I still believe it. But now I also believe that I should not be throwing myself at him. And as some people have said, if he really wanted to talk me then he would. And I believe that now, cause he's had lots of chances. And he hasn't really done anything about it. None that I notice, at least. So now I think I really am ready for the Acceptance stage. I've been watching As Told By Ginger episodes and I think it has helped me realize that sometimes you really have to let go of things that matter to you, or things you believe in, in order to find yourself and find new things that would matter to you, and to gain new perspective.

According to a Dove Promises Message, "You will not discover new oceans until you've had the courage to leave the shore."

I'm not completely closing that chapter however, like I said, I still believe. I would just not be doing some crazy, stupid things anymore.